Chrissy Teigen Shares Her Pregnancy Loss & Partial Placenta Abruption Experience
Chrissy Teigen has been understandably quiet about the loss of her unborn baby – ‘Baby Jack’ since she made the announcement. But she has broken that silence to share her experience.
On her Medium platform, Chrissy details the night sharing everything that happened. She wrote;
“I had no idea when I would be ready to write this. Part of me thought it would be early on when I was still really feeling the pain of what happened. I thought I would sit in the corner of my bedroom with the lights dimmed, just rolling off my thoughts. I’d have a glass of red wine, cosy up with a blanket, and finally, get the chance to address “what happened”.”
Breaking down the events that led to the sad loss Chrissy Teigen penned;
“I would have an epidural and be induced to deliver our 20 weeks old, a boy that would have never survived in my belly (please excuse these simple terms). I was previously on bed rest for over a month, just trying to get the little dude to 28 weeks, a “safer” zone for the fetus. My doctors diagnosed me with partial placenta abruption. I had always had placenta problems. I had to deliver Miles a month early because his stomach wasn’t getting enough food from my placenta. But this was my first abruption. We monitored it very closely, hoping for things to heal and stop. In bed, I bled and bled, lightly but all day, changing my own diapers every couple of hours when the blood got uncomfortable to lay in.”
Trying to save Baby Jack…
“I could have spent these days at the hospital, but not much of a difference would have been made. I was still seen by doctors at home, silently twisting their negative words into positives, thinking that everything might still turn out okay. Finally, I had a pretty bad night in bed, after a not-so-great ultrasound, where I was bleeding a bit more than even my abnormal amount. My bleeding was getting heavier and heavier. The fluid around Jack had become very low — he was barely able to float around. At some points, I swore it was so low I could lay on my back and feel his arms and legs from outside my belly.
After a couple of nights at the hospital, my doctor told me exactly what I knew was coming — it was time to say goodbye. He just wouldn’t survive this, and if it went on any longer, I might not either. We had tried bags and bags of blood transfusions, every single one going right through me like we hadn’t done anything at all. Late one night, I was told it would be time to let go in the morning. I cried a little at first, then went into full-blown convulsions of snot and tears, my breath not able to catch up with my own incredibly deep sadness. Even as I write this now, I can feel the pain all over again. Oxygen was placed over my nose and mouth, and that was the first picture you saw. Utter and complete sadness.”
Line many others, Chrissy Teigen has felt the emptiness and despair that might come after such a loss. But, truthfully, hope can be found inthe end. Hope to move on…try again…push past it.
TW would like to encourage every mother out there who may have gone through the same experience – you will be okay. You might not see it now – but you will come out of this stronger.
Read Chrissy’s full experience here.
Photo Credit: @ChrissyTeigen (Instagram)
